Why the blog is called Dreaming of Brownies:
Our last name is Brown and my husband’s nickname on one of his deployments was “Brownie” and it has stuck with him since. ‘Dreaming of Brownies’ because we are in fact dreaming, wishing, hoping, praying for baby Brownies one day. This is our life and where we currently are in it. Living fully with what God has already blessed us with but also dreaming of the day we can have our baby Brownies.
This is a snippet of our story: Husband, Matt, and I met when we were 16. We dated for 5 years, Matt joined the Air Force and we got married. We’ve been married for 9 years and I can honestly say we’re still no where near tired of each other yet. He is my best friend. We always dreamed of getting married and starting a family young. Matt had the idea that when he retired at 39 years old from the military, he wanted to be sending kids off to college at the same time. I from the time I can remember have always wanted to be a mom. So imagine our surprise when we finally got married and a year, 2 years, 4 years, 6 years, now 8 years go by and it still hasn’t happened yet. We have struggled very privately for a long time now with unexplained infertility. I went through many many months asking “WHY!?” and what were we doing wrong. We are both very private people when it comes to that area of our lives so we never felt the need to share the information that we were even trying or that we were in fact struggling. The longer we wait and try, the harder it gets and I find myself feeling more alone, more broken, and with fewer answers the more tests, pokes and prods that are done.
So little by little we’ve been sharing our experience and with sharing, the more we see we are in fact not alone and we have an awesome support system around us. This is our life, our dream, our hopes for a future of little Brownies.
“The secret of joy is to keep seeking God where we struggle to see where He is.” Ann Voscamp-from the book One Thousand Gifts: A Dare to Live Fully Right Where You Are